Right. I've finally cleared my head, after like so many days. And if I don't say this now, I'm afraid I won't have anymore time to do so. Especially with the reshuffling next year.

And for those who know how important pride is to me, this post is eating up much of it.

Yup.

I'm sorry.

I know I acted really childishly,
And I slack for projects.

I'm not going to give excuses for the previous projects, but be rest assured from now I'll give my best to everything I commit myself to, because now I'm closely watching my commitment and prevent problems with it from surfacing.

Some of you might think that this is all just a bunch of crap,

But I don't know, I just feel I really need to tell you all this. I need to account for my actions, right? And I'm sincere about my apology.

Now, I just have to say this, I suppose I acted that way because I haven't had a taste of true friendship for a long time. I was green with jealous, or to put it better, full of envy, because you all had good, close friends. And people who know me, know I really need friends, because I'm a Man of Faith. Before I can do anything for the world, or about my grades, I need support.
And my support comes from having many friends. I was brought up among countless close friends, and when I came to NUSHigh, I thought I could make new friends that were just as good. After 2 years, although I haven't been a good friend to many, I'm sure I have many friends who care, and I will prove to them I'm of good friend material, and have closer friends than before.

I'm just so afraid I can't last any longer without close friends to turn to. Actually, I think I already lost my last straw, seeing as how I acted on that Friday. Friends are half the definition of Cheryl Yeow, and family is the other half.

That's why I say friends and family are just as important. Without these special people, I wouldn't even have made it to NUSHigh. Their care can be said as my pillar of strength.

Once again, my sincere apologies.
And thanks to those who are my good friends, no matter whether you still talk to me now or not. Because you cared. And to M07102, because when I first joined NUS High, you all welcomed me with open arms. In my heart, 202 will always be the best. No matter what happens.

Love,
Cheryl